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after knowing every truth, i felt like an idiot. someone whom was fooled around, again and again by the same culprit, for so a long long time. so many months. who to blame? myself, for being so gullible, stupid enough. wtf!! anyway, thats the past already. but for one last time!!! i wish to vast my anger into here again.. for only one last time. cos i will nv wan to think about it again. for your info, i'm already quite cooled about it le. so long sory cut short. here it goes.. you farking bitch! dun you dare point your finger at me when your "so-called" husband run away from you. he is not your husband anyway, juz someone who told you lies that he wanted to marry you.. haha.. but from the way you behave, no need to guess oso know he will run away. so crude, so uncivilised, so everything. wat a bitch~ pointing your finger at the person who helped you in the 1st place. you tot you are really miss world. as for you butch. dun think that when the blind manager pet on you means you can ya-ya-get-away. with his way of doing things, the club will sooner or later collaspe. not respecting the in-betweens. calling straight to the manager to inform him that you are late. wat a apple-polisher. if i were you i will quit my job straight away, especially when no one likes me. you can go and team with your no-far-better colleague. a branch of hypocrites. since alot of things happened recently. i tend to be very cautious with people. not trusting anyone except a few. keep having the mentality that those who talked to me are trying to dig something out of me. i cant control myself but to carry on with this mentaliy. becos of all these stupid incidents that shamed me out of nothing, i recalled about my past. and i realized that i have been treated badly by people of that skin colour before, and not only once. i remember few years back. this lady keep borrowing money from everyone. even me especially. the matter being to grow and spread over our club. but was soon settle when the management hold her pay and use it to settle her debts. she, always tell mi how badly her husband treated her. but still listen to her husband and pay for his everything. came to my house one night where i have to go down and pay the taxi fare. took my shoes from work for personal use without asking. took my bag, socks. clothes. stay over at my house for a night but in the end when back to the husband and i have to fork out the cab fare again. but at least she will note down how much she owes. unlike some butch "money i nv forget one." you dun even remember how many time you ask money or favours from me. not repaying any of them instead making use of me and throwing me to die again and again. for i was so stupid to believe in your sad-puppy-look face. people of those kind are unreasonable, selfish, petty, and coward. not finding out the truth before you take any actions, think only for yourself, not willing to admit your mistake, and not willing to face the truth and apolognize when you found out that you are actually the one in the wrong. i always tot i was sort of princess's life. being pampered by my family. but i will nv wan to remember that i was slapped by someone of that skin colour during my primary school life. it was after school in the school bus. a football came flying to my face and as a normal person you will juz block it with your arm. i did that and the ball accidentally went flying out of the window across the road. in the end i got a tight slap on my face for throwing the ball out. it wasnt my fault but i dun have the courage to speak up at that age. so i juz keep quiet while the big sisters beside me stand up for me. when i reach home i told my mom "i dun wan to take school bus anymore" but still end up in there cos the bus auntie insist i continue the transport. at the end of school second day, that farker apolognize to me "hey. sorry huh" so insincere. i bet someone muz have threathened him to apolognize to me. else he will suffer a great deal. becos of all this bullies i enountered throughout my journey, i became stronger. even my cousins and siblings bullied me when i was a little girl. i will nv forget how i was being bullied by others. from the day i open my mouth and speak up, its my turn for revenge. my debating skills nv lose. its juz up for me to think whether i should or its worth it to do so.. i am the kind whom used to win. i cant take myself losing out. i will make sure the other party suffer from a extremely disgraceful scene. now, nah~ revenge will nv help in anything. i will juz keep quiet a walk away i think. i used to think "an eye for an eye" & "double my returns" but now i will forget about it. unless....... you know me well enough? Monday, February 20, 2006
today i wake up and find my wallet gone, i was so angry and feel so helpless. my good-for-nothing younger brother took it. and so many wat-ifs came into my mind at that time..
"wat if he use my money go and buy a handphone?" <- my mom will be responsible for your info, he sold his previous nokia 6230 for peanuts $150, used my papa's phone, and self-destroyed it. so he has nothing now time.. "wat if he use finish my ez-link card?" <- my mom will be responsible "wat if he use my funkey card?" <- my mom will be responsible "wat if he swipe my cards for useless thing?" <- my mom will be responsible "wat if my wallet end up with his friends?" <- my mom will be responsible "wat if my money wouldnt be there anymore?" <- my mom will be responsible for your info, i know it wouldnt be there anymore, but surprisingly, he only took 30 bucks "wat if he use my name to do bad things?" <- my mom will be responsible "wat if he lost my wallet?" <- my mom will be responsible he will be punish severely for i have to pay for so much replacement "wat if he use my nric to...?'" <- my mom will be responsible i will nv spare him and hand him over to the police "wat if..." <- my mom will be responsible "wat if..." <- my mom will be responsible "wat if..." <- my mom will be responsible everything my mom will be responsible. i dun care i have already planned to call the police when i got home. but lucky for him, he reached home before me. i received dozens of calls from my home, and when i call back, he happens to pick up the call and apolognize to me. but its useless. things will happen again soon. this is not the 1st time. not the second time. its the endless count. he always answer my questions with another question. i was really so frustrated with him. i was thinking of how to punish him. my brother will arm-lock him, and me standing in front of him slapping him. but its not enough, i will make sure i leave him disfigured, with my nails crawling on his skin. using a cane to whip him is too simple, i will tie him in bed, use a super thicker cane or rod to hit him. worse, i will use needles and pins to poke his skin. make him cry and know i'm not someone he can easily step over. ken said that i was mentally sick, psycho. i am. but he force me into this. i cant believe i will tot of all these methods. he is in the living room sleeping on the sofa now. he always nv dare to sleep in his room when he done something wrong. for the fear of retributions. well, he will nv know.
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